I am feeling completely and utterly alone right now. I am married, I am a teacher, I have a child...all of these thngis that are good and should be wonderful, and I look and don't see my self-worth. I feel like a constant BURDEN on everyone. I really think I am running out steam...the water is backing up, the dam is going to burst, and I have to hurriedly rebuild it. I've never been diagnosed with depression, and I'm not on meds...I have been seeing a therapist for the last five months every week, and I love her, but when I leave, I feel like I didn't accomplish what I wanted to. I feel I never truly express or can explain exaclyu what's wrong with me. However, I KNOW there's something wrong with me. I feel hopeless, joyless, and way past "life sucks"... feel like I don't know which end is up, and I no longer want to keep "bugging" my husband. He takes things too personally, assumes he can fix everything, and I try to tell him, "You can't fix me...because even I don't know what's broken."
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