Hello to all, I am new to this and have a lot on my mind so please bear with me. I have been dealing with depression for over twenty years. I have spent tens of thousands of dollars out of my own pocket on every available treatment option with NO POSITIVE RESULTS. My situation is now compounded by work related injuries from a 12 ft fall off a ladder in Oct. 2006. I have had reconstructive knee surgery and am still undergoing treatment for a herniated disc (diagnosed 13 months after the fall) in my neck and a stress fracture (diagnosed 17 months after the fall) in my lower back. Doctors and Lawyers dragging their feet is why these spinal injuries took so long to diagnose. After all this time there is still no method of pain management. My career has been greatly affected, I have run out of money and I have had no means of emotional support through this time. My Fiance is too selfish to care and seems to enjoy taking her frustration out on me. My mother has her own health issues. My brother is nowhere. I am at my breaking point and don't know what to do anymore. I am TOTALLY alone in this and have lost hope for any happiness in this life and I sometimes don't want to exist anymore. I say exist because this is not living.
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