i'm new to this site, and i've been on tons of different meds, ssri's dont work, tca's don't keep my moods stable, right now i'm trying parnate (maoi)-the first couple days it worked, now its not really keeping my depression at bay. i had a terrible mood swing where i was just pissed off at everyone and couldn't hide it so i embarrassed myself in front of my inlaws for that. anyway, i'm feeling a lot of anxiety now. like, i think everyone i know looks at me like i'm a crazy person, its getting harder to hide. i just want to feel stable. my kids don't deserve to be brought up with a crazy mom who has crazy moods. maybe i'm bipolar or something. i don't know yet. my doctor is probably watching out for that, but i don't think i am totally bipolar bc i have not been manic. i do things though, like i spend a lot on my credit cards to make myself feel better. who knows.
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