I've been feeling really bad lately. My problem is getting anyone to understand though. Im not someone whose unfortuanate im fairly well off im 17 years old I've been throguh alot though in that short amout of time i was raped when i was 11 years old and i was molested by my babysitter for 5 years and I even told my mother and she never believed me and for some reason no one ever believes me about anything its the most frusturating thing ever no one takes me seriosuly or understands my boyfriend even weve been dating for about 8 months and he doesnt ever believe me or trust me and ive never done anything to make him second guess me i just seem to have the worst luck whenever something goes right something has to go wrong right after it and i cant take it my frustration and anger have just made me an emotional wreck towards everyone. I feel like im used for everything money rides etc. just today i got pulled over for speeding and i had just got done swimmin and this cop makes me get out of the car on the middle of the highway in a bikini and just sat there and stared at me and degraded me to the point where i just broke down and became hysterical and i dont know what to do to get my point across that i cant take be treated like this anymore. It's too much my self esteem is 0 right now and i dont know what to do to fix it. Anyone?
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