Well here comes another breakdown. Gotta love it. I get this way when i feel like i am giving too much and not getting anything back. But me knowing that doesn't make it any better. I feel absolute rage and anger and i want to yell and scream at everyone i see. I'm tired of giving giving giving. Most of the time i don't even know i do it. It's only when i feel like this that i know i have gone too far and i've forgotten about me. A simple baby shower. On top of the 4 weddings and 5 wedding showers i've gone to in the last 3 months. Buying presents, celebrating everyone's else freakin lives. Well congratulations. Your life's great and mine sucks. How bout i spend some of my money on you?? Since that's what i'm supposed to do. I'll do that instead of spend it on what i need - new tires, rent, groceries. But it's okay cause your life is much better than mine and YOU deserve presents. Don't worry about me - i'll stand in the shadows and pretend i'm SOOOO happy for you when i just want to sceam at you. I'll get in my 1995 honda while you get into your 2007 camry with the present I bought you with MY hard earned money. Congratulations - what else can i do for everyone else that's better than me?? Would you like a leg? Maybe my right arm? Sure cut it off - i'll be fine. Don't worry about me. Just take take take.
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