I am not feeling so good. I had a car accident about 2 months ago and i am still unable to work or even move properly. I keep telling myself i will heal, but i recently found out i will need operations. Before the accidint i was workiing a lot, 70 hrs a week. I lived with my best friend and had for 3 years and i had a 'sort of' relationship who was nice. I havent seen him since the accident, and if we speak on the phone he is really stand offish. The day after my accident my best friend moved out with her girlfriiend.i got back from the hospitl to an empty hjouse. I feel realy abandoned. the only person who is around is my ex boyfriend who i was with on and off for 5 years. He is nice but our relationship was always volitile, and i ahvent sem him for a year before this and when he leaves i feel overwhelming lonliness.. I always had a huge network of friends but no-one seems to care when i am injured, everyone always relied on me for support and help and a shoulder to cry on and now i need it, no-one is here. I had a fight with my best friend about seeing my ex boyfriend (she thinks i shouldn't see him) and now i really have no=one except him. i feel so lonely. i dont know what to do. i am at the hospital every few days but no-one seems interested in the fact that when they are talking to me i wish i had of died, it is a horrible thing to say but it is how i feel, and it is so scary because i really wish that i had. Sorry if saying that upset anyone but i just had to get it off my chest.
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