I'll try to condense the past 8 yrs into as short a post as possible. Starts in 2000 when I had my daughter after she was born I was kinda forced into having a tubial I didn't want by family members. A few months later I had emergency surgery to remove my galbladder that had already busted..2 weeks later I'm back in the hospital my liver had begun to shut down and had severe pancreatitis. That's when I have steadily slipped futher into this slump plus fighting chronic pancreatitis, and feelings of guilt and worthlessness over the tubial. My family doctor has told me I'll just one of those people who just can't seem to kick it. So I get the chronic depression diagnosis. It's affected my marriage of almost 16 yrs to the point my husband is very distant and talking about divorce. He's really all I have left. If I lose him I will have truely lost everything......this has cost me my job, my family, my health, my happiness, we may even lose our home because I can't work. Meds don't work I've been on as many as 4 anti depressants at once. Talked to a therapist didn't work.....made me feel worse actually. Help! I've thought a lot about suicide...even tried but couldn't go through with it. But this may just be the final push to do the deed. Anyone out there?
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