Yesterday I disclosed to my therapist that I have had suicidal thoughts (which she already knew about) and fantasies about harming (murdering) my boss and some coworkers within the last 2 weeks. I also told her I feel like I am capable of "snapping" and reacting in irrational or even violent ways. My hate has started to revolve from self-loathing to outward rage directed at others. Right now it is strictly in my head, but how long until I act? She suggested we look into admitting myself into a mental hospital for inpatient treatment. It seems so extreme and sudden, but I can't go on like this, not knowing how much more I will escalate until I flip out. I am not currently on meds, but am trying to find a psychiatrist. Has anyone experienced or seen this before? Does inpatient seem like a good option? Thank you.
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