I use to be so happy before everything went wrong. I won't bore you with the details but I can't seem to get my happiness back. I am full of self-doubt and shame, which makes me feel worthless. I know before when I was happy. Yes I had not dealt with my childhood trauma but a least I could pretend to happy. Now, I am sure I am not loveable, everybody hates me and I should give up on school for I am not smart enough and I don't deserve to be there. My self doubt and miserable thinking is eating up all my time and it may lead me to failing out of graduate school. Yes, I know that school is not everything but sadly it is all I got. I do not have social life, my parents have been dead for 20 plus years and the small remainder of my family are so far away, plus they have thier own issues. I am isolating myself from what support I have and I am really scared.
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