am i not sleeping becuz my subconscious is telling me that i don't really want to go home? i really need to go to sleep, especially today. i worked lasted night and i work tonight. i have slept for about 90 mins total today. i can still get a good 4 hours in before i go to work but i can't seem to go to sleep. this is so important cuz after i get off of work tomorrow i will have a very long drive ahead of me home. however, i know that if i'm too sleepy i'm not going to be capabable of driving and i will have no choice but to come home and go to sleep before i leave, and since i'm not sleeping today i may sleep a very long time at that. if i had gotten some sleep today it wouldn't be a problem cuz after work i can usually stay up another 6 or 7 hours before i even get sleepy. and usually on any other day i have absolutely no problem sleeping but today i just can't make myself go to sleep. so i figure maybe this is my subconscious' way of telling me that i don't really want to go home. i think i do cuz i'm supposed to and i have been planning this for a while now but at the same time i don't know if i'm ready to face my family yet. it may cause me to back track.
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