I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for about 4 and 1/2 years, and now my depression has deeply strained it. He says he knows hurts me, and now he doesn't know if he doesn't want to be with me. We haven't spoken in days. I want to be with him, but it doesn't seem like he wants to be with me. He recently moved over here, and He spends more time with his friends than he does with me. It seems like he wants to live the life of a single guy. I thought that the move was going to make our relatinship stronger, but all it has done is make it fall apart. I love him very much; and if he leaves, my world will fall apart. What's more depressing is that all these years will be a waste; I gave up my social life for him at his request, and he now wants me to go out with my friends. But he doesn't understand that it's not easy to go get them back. Now, he might bail on me and truly leave me alone. I'm afraid if he does i might hurt myself. :( All i do is wait for him to call..
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