Depression Support Group
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Let me try to keep this short and to the point.
My mother has had a rough life, but alot of it she has brought upon herself. When she was 19 she had me, Then not sure of the time frame she was diognosed with a brain tumor. She got chemo, lost all her top teeth due to this and had false teeth at the age of 20. I was about 1-2 when all this was going on.
My mom met my stepdad and decided she would self medicate with heroin, thats when the nightmare started. I was neglected, and was witness to alot of things a kid should not see or be around. Drug use and just some scary situations and people.when I was 5 my mom popped out another kid, my brother. I was his caretaker, he was my baby practically, some time passed and I was living with my grandma for awhile and my brother with my aunt. 5 years pass my sister is born.I kinda went back and fourth from my mom to my grandma. with my mom it was always unstable and just not a place for a kid and with my grandma I felt safe. I will take you ahead in time eventually I was place with my grandma and my brother and sister in a fosterhome ( my grandma couldn't handle us all.
When I was 12 my grandma died and I went to live with my aunt...My mom popped in and out of my life at diffrent times, sometimes calling and not showing up.So to get to the point my aunt ( I'm leavin out alot of crazy shit)started using meth...my cousins were out of control. I was struggling just to go to school and have a normal life. Finally I got pregnant and relized I couldn't stay in that house so I ran away...to my boyfriend's family, who is now my husband. I was put into a teen pregnancy home for awhile...due to the courts having to ok me living with my boyfriends family which took about 8 months.
I was doing good 17 with child and going to high school, my mom would pop in and out to visit, sometimes high on who knows what.
So here I was nineteen, I had two kids...just graduated high school, very high anxiety...I had a nervous break down, starting my wonderful adventure with deppression.
Let me skip alot of stuff and ask you guys this question...." Should I feel guilty that I don't really want my mom in my life anymore?
When I was younge I said to myself, when I'm an adult I will not have to deal with this, My mom has been drama all my life and she just stresses me out and brings me down...I don't have any want to have a relationship with her, please tell me this is ok, Some of my family though not said to my face but I know,they think I am a cruel bitch....what do you think?
My mother has had a rough life, but alot of it she has brought upon herself. When she was 19 she had me, Then not sure of the time frame she was diognosed with a brain tumor. She got chemo, lost all her top teeth due to this and had false teeth at the age of 20. I was about 1-2 when all this was going on.
My mom met my stepdad and decided she would self medicate with heroin, thats when the nightmare started. I was neglected, and was witness to alot of things a kid should not see or be around. Drug use and just some scary situations and people.when I was 5 my mom popped out another kid, my brother. I was his caretaker, he was my baby practically, some time passed and I was living with my grandma for awhile and my brother with my aunt. 5 years pass my sister is born.I kinda went back and fourth from my mom to my grandma. with my mom it was always unstable and just not a place for a kid and with my grandma I felt safe. I will take you ahead in time eventually I was place with my grandma and my brother and sister in a fosterhome ( my grandma couldn't handle us all.
When I was 12 my grandma died and I went to live with my aunt...My mom popped in and out of my life at diffrent times, sometimes calling and not showing up.So to get to the point my aunt ( I'm leavin out alot of crazy shit)started using meth...my cousins were out of control. I was struggling just to go to school and have a normal life. Finally I got pregnant and relized I couldn't stay in that house so I ran away...to my boyfriend's family, who is now my husband. I was put into a teen pregnancy home for awhile...due to the courts having to ok me living with my boyfriends family which took about 8 months.
I was doing good 17 with child and going to high school, my mom would pop in and out to visit, sometimes high on who knows what.
So here I was nineteen, I had two kids...just graduated high school, very high anxiety...I had a nervous break down, starting my wonderful adventure with deppression.
Let me skip alot of stuff and ask you guys this question...." Should I feel guilty that I don't really want my mom in my life anymore?
When I was younge I said to myself, when I'm an adult I will not have to deal with this, My mom has been drama all my life and she just stresses me out and brings me down...I don't have any want to have a relationship with her, please tell me this is ok, Some of my family though not said to my face but I know,they think I am a cruel bitch....what do you think?
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
best wishes
xoxooxo