Gone to read just now.xx

It is selfish yes. But thats depression for you. Its a very selfish disorder. Dont take this badly but all you are thinking about is yourself when youre depressed. Even if its not wanting to hurt someone else, it all usually comes back to how you ( meaning all of us ) feel about hurting that person. We are all pretty much in the same boat here. Some worse than others. I dont know why you dont want to live, i havnt read all of your profile yet, just the journal part. This site should help you though :) All i can say is....dont do it. You wont be coming back again for a 2nd go at it and these feelings of doom WILL pass. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but they will x

Hun, yeah you need to listen to them. I know you've been going through a really bad time. But please try to see that things can get better. They are trying to help you and trying to show you that you CAN feel better and WILL feel better just give them a chance to help you.

i just feel so empty

I dont think your being selfish so much as not realising your full potential. Your full of self hatred just now, for whatever reason and these feelings are making you feel unworthy. Its a lie. You are worthy. Do as the doctors and nurses ask and just hang on.

Yeah...i do too. I also feel like no one really cares, no one understands ( how can they? I dont understand how i got like this either so how can they )and that sometimes this world would be better off without me. An then I have moments of reality where i KNOW that people would miss me. Maybe only my boys and my b/f but when i think of what it would do to them if i were to end it... well, i couldnt do it to them :)

Depression is such a rollercoaster. You are just going thru a very bad time and things will improve, believe me. Please don't do anything.

I do understand what you've been thru, read your profile. I am so sorry! I was molested as a child too :(

You can't think rationally when your really depressed. Things will seem more clear in a few days, I promise! Listen to your doctors and nurses, they are only trying to help you. People care about you!

Try to let yourself go and give yourself to these people who are trying to help. You have resisted so much and you still feel the same way? Maybe if you give it a go you might feel different? Please let them help you.xxx

Sorry, but it is selfish. Like other's have said "that's how depression operates." We focus only on ourselves and our feelings. It is very ironic however, that people suffering from depression are some of the most caring and giving people in the world. Try to work with the ones trying to help you. You have value and a purpose in this world. God didn't make a mistake when He made you. Look for that purpose. It is there!