I have been feeling more depressed lately. All of the little things are really getting to me badly. My dog is still nipping and I need to get a trainer in. My stereo needs to be repaired and I am not sure I can carry the dang thing (I think I can) I have to get the dentist to make my lower loss of a tooth look normal as soon as possible and I am not sure he will listen to me (I look like a comedy skit from Hee Haw)--hard to get a professional job with THAT! I have nothing to look forward to in my life. In the last 3 years I don't believe there was one time I woke up in the morning looking forward to anything. Today I have to go to the grocery store, look up electronics stores, bring something back to the store, wash clothes. That is my life. Each of those things is exhausting to me to think about and I procrastinate. There is no joy. My life is all tasks while being terribly sad and feeling my life is basically over as I am stuck with this disease until something really new comes on the market. I honestly don't know how to continue. But the bigger question most people have at base, I believe, is: Why continue?
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