Anyone feel like life is a cruel joke? I'm literally at a loss for words as I think about all the negative experiences that I've been forced to deal with. The really big ones were out of my control and lots of the little issues have been a result of me being either misinformed or just plain dumb. I often wonder how it is that I lack so many of life's crucial tools in order to be an informed and normal person. I'm tired of blaming my past for my shortcomings...but it seems that because I had such a bad foundation that the cards can just not ever be in my favor. This means that I just need to accept the fact that I cannot have any better in my life. I'm not trying to be a downer but I'm admitting that I understand reality. Being positive hasn't always produced favorable results. Life for me is a joke.
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