I left work crying last night, because I hate it there. I hate how negative the whole place is and how absolutely everyone trash talks everyone else behind their backs. I hate that we are always slammed with work and not enough bodies to finish everything, to the point where we can't get meds to the facilities in time. I hate that some people get promoted because they sleep with one of the pharmacists. I hate the egos that abound there. Fortunately for me, next week I will be starting in a different department there, with a pay increase to boot. But it can't come fast enough. I was so tired and burnt out and I literally left home in tears. I was still crying when I got home. Still crying as I took a bath (one of the only things that gives me peace and solace). I feel like people think I'm stupid there.. or maybe that's only me thinking that. Realistically, I realize that it was not my fault the deliveries were late, and that people are going to be petty and negative wherever I go. I think it's mainly that I am in such close proximity to them and their negativity that I soak that shit up and it has a very bad effect on me. Which means moving to a different department will be a very good thing for me. As for last night, I can try and apologize to the nice coworker that I got mad at. Or maybe give her some space at first and then apologize to her. I don't want to go into work today, but calling out sick when I'm not is not my style. I've thought of looking for a new job, but I just applied for benefits through my current workplace. Also, my plan was to stick it out for a few years (or until they fire me, whichever comes first). I've job-hopped so many times lately that this time, I need to stay. And it's the devil I know, and they know me. They appreciate me in their way. After all, if they didn't, they wouldn't be giving me a pay raise. Again, I'm trying... but when I come home crying and binge on chocolate peanut butter to make myself feel better (and I don't typically have a sweet tooth), that's a red flag to me. And this wasn't the first time either.
Its actually a disorder! Anyone else do it?https://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/guide/sleep-related-eating-disorders
If you could have anything you wanted, what would you want for breakfast!I love a cheese omelette witha side of pancakes, yum.... that's what I usually get when I go out.If really hungry I'll get bacon tooSo what would you want???