Today around 1:15am my grandma passed away. She meant everything to me. She was like another mother to me and I can't believe she's gone. She had a heart attack 2 months ago and from that point on she had been getting worse and I guess today she decided it was going to be her last day with us. My sister had called me and my family to come be by my grandmas side one last time to say our goodbyes. An hour after we got there we told her we loved her even though she was on a coma-like state. It looked like she smiled at all of us and then she just passed away on us. I'm glad she's not suffering anymore and that she passed in her sleep but still I feel broken, torn, alone, confused and every motion out there. I'm so depressed. I don't want to be touched, looked at, talked to...any of that. I just don't know what to do. My heart is broken and I feel like I have been stabbed. My chest hurts. My eyes are heavy and tired from crying. When will this all get better? Will my depression get worse or better? But as of right now I don't want to talk to a professional or take mess to calm down. I just want to let the hurt, anger, and sadness out
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