after about 25 years or there abouts i have found a cousin of mine. its so nice to be in touch with him now. but the rest of the family are a total mess on that side. he wants nothing to do with the rest of the family. not his dad, sister or brothers. i am friends with his sister and one of his brothers. he is a good lad, and has told me things i never ever knew about. but he is addiment that i dont let his sister know i have got in contact with him. he never wants to see her again in his life. neither does his eldest brother. and no one will tell me why. so i am stuck in the middle. my dad and his wife wont have anything to do with my female cousin either. they say she is a user, liar, and a waste of time. but i have found her ok with me. even her two eldest kids dont want to be in contact with her. but why ????? i dont have a clue. no one will tell me exactly what she has done to them. expect that she lies, and uses people. but we were always so close as kids i cant turn my back on her. not yet anyways. my dad hit the roof when i told him she was coming here for easter. he didnt want her in his house. so they came here to see her. this totally baffles me. yes she has made alot of mistakes in her past. but i think she has turned herself around to be honest. i think so anyways. she hasnt done a thing against me yet. she do in the future but for now she is ok. we speak about once a week. my elder brother doesnt ever call me, but i do call him and check on him. and the cousin i have just found after all this time i speak to him alot. he is happy with his life there, has a nice family too. so i am stuck in the middle as always. i guess i want to think the best of them all. so i speak to them all. but keep secrets from my female cousin. i cant tell her i have found her brother. but what her brother says is that she knows where he lives. when she told me she didnt have a clue. it makes me feel terrble. that i cant talk about her brothers to her. but i have to respect their wishes. its hard to keep this situation up. i hate lying to people but it seems i will have to if i want to be able to keep in contact with her brothers. and that hurts alot
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