I have had bipolar 1 and suffered from depression my whole life since I was 12 now i'm 34. My husband went to jail a year ago and has 3 years left till he comes home. I feel like im getting more isolated mentally everyday as i seclude myself from the world more and more. I feel scared and I dont know what to do? I'm on meds but they dont seem to be working as they never do. I wish i was never born cause my life has been a living hell and i wish i would never wake up anymore cause i'm scared to take my own life but think of it all the time. I'm so lost without my husband and struggle to function everyday. I have been in bed for weeks and cant get the energy to get up and do anything. The crying doesn't stop and the sadness just overwhelms me and never leaves. I have pulled away from all my friends and family and dont want to talk to anyone about this. They all tell me to leave my husband that he's no good but I can't I Love him dearly and hope he will change. Thanks for listening just lost with no where to turn so I came here. Anyone feel like this? Is depression a never ending battle?
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