I've gained a lot of weight every since I had my daughter. I hate every little thing about myself. I feel like the fat girl around all my friends. I don't get dressed anymore, I never wear makeup, I beat myself in the head with my hands when I attempt to get ready and "feel" pretty. I just hate myself. I haven't been in school in years because I'm so self conscious and I'm also afraid of failing. I dropped out when I was almost 16, started doing drugs, and never returned. And...just so you know...I haven't been on drugs in years. I'm 22 years old. Uh mm...I don't have a job because the last job I had, I got robbed by three black guys and got beat up. I received staples in my head, too. I grew up in a VERY abusive home. Anyhow, I'm currently a stay at home Mom and I've been for 2 1/2 years. I've let myself get so far behind and I don't know how to pick myself up anymore. I feel like I'll never succeed and I'm stupid. I don't know where to begin.
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