Hey, I hear you. I wound up in the hospital almost every time I moved in my adult life. Things get easier once you're more settled. It can take a little time, but you're at the worst time now, it's all downhill from here. Good luck and hang in there.

I'm moving too, so I hear you.

Help help help! do you have help? dont go this alone! Do you have someone helping you?

I think that highbi said it all. Lots of help is what you need. Things will get better one day for you. Just hang in there and get help. Talk to those on ds and seek professional help. Therapy and friends will make a difference in your life.

Sweetie I cannot image the loss of a child. However, I just moved from a home I lived in for twenty years. It had good and bad memories for me.

My kids were born in this house. My ex-husband abused me for seven years in this house.

I can tell you end result, as I packed, I cried, I was angry, I was melancholey. I went through the entire gambit of emotions and back again. My anxiety was through the roof. My chest is tightening just remembering. Packing and seeing everything takes you through every experience all over--good, bad, tramatic, etc.

HOWEVER, end result, I went back to the house when it was empty. I sat there for about an hour. Forgiving myself. Forgiving others. Thanking God for the good and the not so good--because I did learn and I have become the person I am today because of them. And then I said good-bye, and ironically and symbolically closed the door for the last time.

A year later, I am better for the move and I wish I had done it years before. Sometimes we get so paralized by the closed doors of our past, that we do not even see the new doors open in front of us, inviting us to a new and better experiences.

My advice, experience your emotions. KNOW they are just emotions, not life--at least not anymore. Try to focus on what your life will become--hope, dream, imagine--keep your sweet memories, but leave the past where it belongs, in the past!

Love,
Leslie

When are you moving? Do you have time to do some online research or to make phone calls to find some support groups/systems in your new location? That way, hopefully you will have something lined up before you get there.