My mother called me friday night and said she was concerned about me. She says she knows that something is wrong with me, and wants me to talk about it with her. She also thinks I resent my oldest daughter. (I got pregnant at 18 with my boyfriend at the time, who was cheating on me. I broke up with him and raised her for 3 years by myself until I met my husband who now is her father) Anyways, she thinks I resent my daughter because I now realize what I missed out on when she was a baby. I feel really guilty that my parenting comes across like that. I don't think that I resent my daughter at all. In fact, if I hadn't had her I would probably be in a really bad place. One thing I can't stop doing is seeing her biological father every time I look at her. I don't get angry, just really sad because he hasn't seen her in 6 years. I saw him a year ago at the bar where he works and tried to give him a picture, but he said he didn't want to have anything to do with her. Anyways, I need help to try to be a better parent. I love my kids, but it's hard to be happy all the time.
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