It's been nearly five months since my wife moved out, nearly three since any employment prospects dried up, and two since the entire world went into isolation. At 51, this is the most difficult time I've ever experianced in life. I'm completely and totally alone, and the worst part about it is that I feel powerless to pull myself out of it. I would love to go to work everyday and socialize with co-workers, like most other people can, but there's no jobs available that I can physically do. I would love to go out to a casino, or the movies, or the park, or even a singles bar to try and meet people, but they're all closed and social distancing has turned into the norm. I feel completely helpless to learn, grow, and recover from the multitude of terrible events that landslided over me. How can a mind and soul heal when the means of attaining recovery and healing are simply unavailable? I sit in this house alone all day, all week, all month, a home that used to be full of life and family. I watch other people sequestered as well, but most have family and friends and are getting through it as a group. I envy them. I have been in this state since mid-January, and I see no prospects of hope at all. In fact, I predict more suffering to befall me soon (perhaps that's paranoia). I am now merely existing and watching the world move on without me. I don't think any of you can give me advice I haven't already heard or thought of before, I just wanted you guys to know about it, I suppose. I hope everyone is doing the best they can out there.
I don't now where to start. My last relationship I was with her for almost 5 years. I knew her for 6 years. I didn't date her for a year knowing of her upbringing and her never dealing with it with professional help and I knew she was a drinker. She's a sweet person sober but her vice was alcohol. We started dating and she eventually moved in with me. Hiding liquor by the pool or behind...
I have been on Effexor for like 9 months but some nights I wake up with terrible bed saturating sweats, feel clammy and its horrible :( Just wondering am I alone on this :(