Okay, so im just looking for others input on something. I recently stopped taking ALL of my meds. I have only been on meds for a couple months, 2 maybe 3 at the most for the first time in my life. The first batch they gave me after letting me outta the nut house (for real im not doggin on mental wards, in this place the counslers need counsler and its a mess) caused me to go into something they called mania I believe it was. I overdosed on those and was hell bent on ending it. SO again another trip into miller dwan and this time they gave me even MORE meds, and once again they didnt help. The last set made me CRY constantly, they had me on a mood staballizer that made me feel like I was seeing double for the first 3 hours after I took them. So I had enough and stopped taking all of them. The ativan was a little hard to stop taking, but I did it anyways. I feel GREAT, things are changing, I still have my moments, but over all I feel better. Im just worried that the "honeymoon" period will wear off and maybe im just creating a false happiness if that makes sense?? could the meds have caused the depression to get worse??? am I crazy for thinking i can just get off them?? Everyone around me at home thinks im gonna lose it any second, and they are all trying to force me to take them. I dont want to take meds anymore. I just dont want to ya know. Does anyone here get through depression without meds?? Ugh im just confused and want to be happy all the time ya know... any advice or anything would help... thanks in advance! Tara
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