I am home with the stench of a urine ingrained care? home in my nostrils,,,with the vision of an old,,,young friend becoming senile and blubbering saliva down his front,,,,old .old .old, at 43,,,the result of a vile and evil f****** legacy....couldn't talk,, he can't,,..couldn't hug,..all movement completey unco-ordinated, no control ,,mind and he, him going down the plughole... hard to love to my shame.....filthy hell hole of a care home...dirt and grime, cusions with the stuffing coming out, food down walls and ancient insitutional plastic chairs,, uncared for care??? home... where noisy tv's control and destroy any attempt at converstation,,,no music, no calm no peace..,just static from old and decrepit tv's....he was handsome,and bright and funny and good,,,he had a whole life in front then his legacy hit....huntingdons chorea,,,had he realised I think he would have jumped from the top of anyhing,,,he flew high,,Matthew....I have written this here because I am so so sad and I dont know how to deal with this...how this can happen and why....he has no-one,,,,
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