I am officially id as Major Depressed, but I have so many other disorders that overlap. For the last two weeks I've been in full blown all disorders. I've been depressed, borderline, bipolar, adhd,ocd, and fighting SI. Right now before I'm going to bed I see a little bit of sunshine. I hope it last. All it takes is a night of bad dreams to screw me over and I'm back in bed. I'm so sick of this damn bed. I hope I have some fight tomorrow. There is so much in my mind I want to do, but so much going wrong it weighs me down. It would help if I could get some damn therapy. Actually I'm afraid of therapy. I had a flash back while reading some self help book. People have said this book is good but it's been bringing me down. Instead of remembering the event, I actually went back there and totally freaked. Now that's some scary shit. It didn't help I was in the ER with my husband. That would have been terrible if they would have kept me and released him. Praying for no nightmares.
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