Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Depression is a thief! It sweeps in every couple of years and takes away everything I have.
When I'm not depressed, I work twice as hard as everyone else, just trying to accomplish whatever I can in the few months that I'm "normal." For example, in the last two years, I've written a novel (due out next August, hopefully), held down two jobs, become the leader of one of the worship teams in my church, and was a member of four different weekly things, one of which is a hockey team.
But here's the depression again. My moods are swinging WILDLY, with every swing pulling me lower; my energy is all but gone, to the point that I can barely do my paid work, and I might have to quit; and I'm starting to snarl at my poor roommates every now and then. I really hurt one of them yesterday, and I feel so bad about it...what if they decide they can't handle me, and I have to go live by myself again? What if I lose my jobs again, and have to start all over in a year or so when this spell passes?
I'm sick, sick, sick of having everything torn away from me, and then being accused of having horrible character flaws (laziness, for example, or "making decisions based on emotions instead of logic", or lack of faith/perserverance.) I'm sick of having to be unreliable. I'm sick of living in the shadow of this monster that just crushes me whenever the hell it feels like it.
At least I'm still reasonably coherent right now. Hopefully I can hold my life together enough that it'll only take patchwork when I come back up, instead of having to start all over again.
When I'm not depressed, I work twice as hard as everyone else, just trying to accomplish whatever I can in the few months that I'm "normal." For example, in the last two years, I've written a novel (due out next August, hopefully), held down two jobs, become the leader of one of the worship teams in my church, and was a member of four different weekly things, one of which is a hockey team.
But here's the depression again. My moods are swinging WILDLY, with every swing pulling me lower; my energy is all but gone, to the point that I can barely do my paid work, and I might have to quit; and I'm starting to snarl at my poor roommates every now and then. I really hurt one of them yesterday, and I feel so bad about it...what if they decide they can't handle me, and I have to go live by myself again? What if I lose my jobs again, and have to start all over in a year or so when this spell passes?
I'm sick, sick, sick of having everything torn away from me, and then being accused of having horrible character flaws (laziness, for example, or "making decisions based on emotions instead of logic", or lack of faith/perserverance.) I'm sick of having to be unreliable. I'm sick of living in the shadow of this monster that just crushes me whenever the hell it feels like it.
At least I'm still reasonably coherent right now. Hopefully I can hold my life together enough that it'll only take patchwork when I come back up, instead of having to start all over again.
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I just read your profile. You are an amazing and talented person. Get help now before things get any worse. My prayers are with you.
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