Ivy,

[Hugs] Welcome to the daily strength community.

You will have many dear firends here who are delighted to see you feel your best and do well.

There is great support and encouragement from the wonderful ladies and gentlemen here. You'll see.

If you want to speak about anything and you need someone to listen. You are welcome to contact me.

By taking this step and being here, you have begun to look for hope.
Seek and You shall find.

Love to You

One thing you can be sure of, as evidenced by the number of people on here, is that you are certainly not alone in the pain you're currently experiencing. It doesn't lessen the pain itself, but hopefully can serve to alleviate some of the isolation and feelings that no-one can relate.
This is a greatly supportive community, and the more you read of people's posts and journals, the more you'll realize you're not alone.
Best of luck and feel free to message me if ever you need.

we are all here for you

Hi Ivy:

I know how you feel as far as a mental defect is
concerned. I shared with a dear friend what it
was like to be in my brain. I even asked her
what it's like to feel normal brain chemestry.

I'm still searching for a solution to this and I'm
sure you are to.
My latest attempt is to try natural products like
5htp and tyrozene. Opps, I spelled that a bit
funny.
I have never been hospitalized, but lately I've
been wondering if that would be a good place
to go for a few days.
Blessings to you and know that the people on
here understand.

I visited your page and you know what?----you sound a lot like me! I feel like a defect---depression itself makes you feel that way and then if it really effects your life for awhile you feel defective in running that! I am, like you, very scared that this will never get better. But when I look on the internet and see the new technologies being approved (not meds, but they are working on those too) and being worked on particularly for those who are NOT getting the hoped for results from treatments already in existence, I have a lot of hope. What I have a hard time with is waiting. I have realized though that there is awareness and urgency in the research community and even at the National Institute of Mental Health. THEY KNOW about us!!!!!!

Welcome to DS Ivy!!

I am so glad for this website, as there are many of us who feel much the same way as you do, and don't have anyone around us in our daily lives who really understand.

Ivy, we have all been there and done that. Your not alone or defective in anyway, we are all here to help if you need a friend or two to rest apon. I know how it can be not to be able to trust those around me with my thoughts, but your more than welcome to share with us...we are all here for you : )

Hello Ivy,
I am pretty new to this site and I have made one friend so far I go through alot of shitty times too and I feel like I have a mental defect also but that is what this site is fro to make friends and get help and help others. Take Care I am here for you if you need any one.

Hi Ivy, welcome to DS. Questions... when was the last time you did something to reward yourself?? Like.. girls night out, SPA visits.. you know the feel good things? Being a lab supervisor, well doesn't sound like fun at all..lol Probably stressful and routinal job, being a supervisor.. well you have the power to have musical friday!??? Something fun! Just some suggestion :)

Ivy, I know how you feel its terrible,but I am there with you, you are not alone.I too dont know what to do sometimes,i get angry alot, thats how it comes out for me.I stay in alot, gotta get out girl. why dont you make a list of all the good things in your life, that could be a start. yesterday was my birthday not a good one.But we must go on. Hang in there. prayers and hugs