Recently I came across some friends from high school on a chat on the computer, they all have done fantastic things with there careers and still are growing, and I went the other way and started a family and didnt focus on my career... but the thing that made me have an anxiety attack is that I finally figured out why I am a lonely person... I have always had friends, you know as a floater... through high school I never really kept the same friends... and I never really formed those strong bonds with others. you know, those everlasting friendships. I never really thought about it until I saw that a lot of peole I knew are still making memories with "old" friends. I never had that. I am a really nice person, the type that someone could always depend on, but for some reason all the people that I got close with moved out of town, or you know moved on with life in the opposite direction. I used to be good at meeting people. but now I have come to terms with the fact that I am not likeable for whatever reason. I have my fiance, but even with him there, I dont have that friend that I can call up for coffee or a chat. I literally have no friends. My fiance does, a lot, but they dont have any common interests, and its hard. I feel that I put a lot into my relationships with others, and I always am left behind. I feel alone. My fiance is understanding to a point, he really tries... but when he and I have an arguement, I have to bottle it up because I have no one... how can I overcome what I have always been... alone>?
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