It's only natural for a person to want to be something different sometimes, right? Everybody always says believe in yourself and in what you can do ... but I don't feel like I'm anything important. I've done so many bad things that I can't fix or take back. I've hurt so many people and I've been selfish. I'm just getting tired of being by myself all the time ... I'm lonely. All my friends are freaked out by me now and most of my family is gone. I'm horrible at socializing so going to parties and stuff like a normal teenager is out of the question. I have to keep going on my own and I hate it. The company of only myself gets pretty old pretty fast. I guess it's my own fault though ... the people that actually stuck by me I pushed away. I either held them too loosely ... and on even more occasions ... I held them to tightly. I need a friend and for people to love me again.
Posts You May Be Interested In
Feeling pretty bad today. I'm exhausted in every way. Tired of living this life where nothing changes or gets better despite how much I try. Had a bad life all my life and I'm just tired of being here.