I'm so loney today that I could just die...yea, right...die....if only. I have spent the last 4 days sitting on my couch watching TV and I have not spoken to another human being for 4 whole days. And this is considering living. I'm so lonely that I wish for death but I can't seem to get that job done. I know that my ex is moving on and hooking up with new women, and it's killing me. I still love him so much and I just wish that this lonelyness wasn't so permanent. How do you deal with the fact that this is your life for the next 20 or so years? Sitting on the sofa watching tv and hoping for a wrong number phone call just to hear a human voice. I hate this time of the year. I hate myself. I wish I could die. Please pray for my release from this emptyiness, from this prision of loneliness, from this living death.
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