Does anyone ever feel like the world is on your shoulders and everytime you try to push it off it bounces on again. I don't expect anyone to understand the decisions that I have made in my life, especially over the last 2 years. But I do know this, my children are going to be okay. I however don't know if I will ever find love again. I have endured what I think to be so much over the last 2 years that I don't know how much more I can take. I've lost my mother to cancer, she died in my arms. I've lost a marriage of over 22 years because his sex addiction took him away from me and to a much younger girl (only one time, but once was enough for me), I had to sell my home because I couldn't afford it by myself. I don't believe I will ever own another home. And now this Thursday I'm going thru another surgery for carpal tunnel. The surgery isn't much but once again I'm doing it alone.
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