I've struggled with drepressin since I weas 15 after one of my best friends died suddenly I started usually marijuana "recreationally" the day of her funeral and became an abuser rather quickly I still played soccer and could maintan daily activities but continued to see tradgedy develop in my life periodically my uncle comitted suicide when i was 16 and my biological father died suddenly of a brain tumor when i was 19 by this age I had began to struggle with anorexia and in 2006 went to treatment at remuda ranch weighing in at 83 ounds and suffering from heart palpatations... they placed me zoloft,ambien and zyprexa to fight my deep depression and anxiety dissorders but as soon as I got out of treatment I began to cross addict with bingingeing on alcohol I tried to commit sucide a month later and was almost successful my parents sent me to 6 different christian "rehabs" to try and help me all were unsuccessful then in oct. I hit my bottom while lying in a bed with a shotgun and bullet in hand I had passed out and awaoke to the police once again taking me to the hospital to sober up... I called my mom in Oregon telling her that I was ready and more than willing to seek help in doing so she found a treament center wordrenowned for addiction therapy known as hazeldon I went to their addolecent center in Minnesota on Nov. 1 2007 and managed to completwe the program and go to a program in long beach,CA for my aftercare on Jan,5,2008 I relasped and I've been sober sin Jasn,10, so.. now I'm on just Effexor but its like 450mg so I'm tring to figure out if that's the right dose and just trying to stay sober
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