I woke up feeling better today. Now the phone rings. Bill collectors again. Now I may be being sued for a credit card debit. I haven't even been able to pay my mortgage for the past 4 months. I really hate my husband right now. Him and his need to have is own business. This is all his fault. I can barely take care of the kids all day and to try and get a job for what. To pay for the day care. I probably would loss money. I would love to just take the kids and walk away from this marriage right now. He don't have sex any more. We hardly talk except about our debt. Really we have no life. I am so sick of feeling like I am being crapped on all the time. I know I know others have it worse. But at the age of 39 I have lost 3 babies, watched my in laws die, seen my cousin run over by a truck, and deal with on a daily passes my sons autism, sensory integration and my daughters dislocated lenses in her eyes. I CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE! I AM SHAKING ALL OVER !!!!! THE STRESS IS KILLING ME!!!!!! DYING WOULD BE BETTER THEN LIVING THIS LIFE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!
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