I am 36, I am married to a bipolar guy but that is a total different chapter. I have 2 boys who are awesome. I recently started a new job because I really screwed up my other one-- My most favorite one of all times!!! I guess to some degree everything is tied together beginning with my husbands diease. I was always the life of the party, the "it" girl, never a frown always ready for a good time. Lately, I don't know where that girl went. I am anxious, nervous. I dwell on negative and have lost my energy and zest. I do think it is related to my husband and all that we have been through. I have alot of anger and resentment for what he has done and continues to do. It's funny, people preceive me as strong, independent and secure. I see the opposite. I never dated in HS. I don't htink I was ugly. Never really had a long term boyfriend. There was a guy in HS that was infatuated with me and I finally gave in even though; I knew he was gay????? He later came out. I then jumped right in with my husband????? He wasn't working, not going to school and basically had nothing to offer me. I was college educated and I didn't think back then---I want more for myself??? It's the social worker in me I think. Now I look back and think what the F----???? Please respond