I have no idea where to start or even in what community I belong in. I do know that I am not alone, however it does feel that way right now. I am a 33 year old mother of 3, a girl 16, a girl 15 and a boy 13. Yes, I was a teen mom who had her first at 16, got married at 17 and had 2 more children by the time I was 20. I also suffer from bipolar disorder, adhd, and have struggled with drug and alcohol abuse. I\'ve been sexually abused by a grandfather and physically, emotionally and verbally abused by my husband. My husband and I still have issues, but things are better than in the beginning, we are still together. That is just the basics of me, it is not why I am here. On Dec. 13 my 16 year old told me she was 3 months pregnant, I am still reeling from the news. I had no clue. I might mention that she is emotionally unstable, having tried to commit suicide at 14 and been on meds ever since. She is very up and down and being very verbally abusive toward me. To add insult to injury, her 15 year old sister is ANGRY, to the point of calling her terrible names, telling her that she hopes the baby is dead and she will not treat it as a part of the family. She is also blaming me and treating me like crap. She wants to transfer schools and move out of our home. My mother is not handling it well either and being very unsupportive towards me, yet she has taken the 15 year old under her wing and they have been enjoying bashing my parental skills. I am at a loss, I have dealt with being down and depressed, tried taking my own life, but I have never felt this close to the edge. I know I have to be here to help my family, but I can\'t get out of this fog.
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