
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Ok, I understand how suicide is selfish and it leaves behind all these devastated people, and what I'm about to post won't apply to 99.9% of the people that read it, but it applies to me.
Out of all my family and friends, there is not one of them, with the exception of maybe my mom, that I care about enough to keep me from killing myself if I ever get over the line. Sometimes my thoughts are fueled by wanting to hurt them. I want them to feel the pain I feel. This has come from the many years of being ignored and not listened to when I cried out for help. It seems like the only way to make them understand how I feel. It excites me in a weird way to think about what they'd feel if I killed myself. The pain and hurt they'd feel, forever more. I think they deserve it because they have refused to help me. Like I said before, I know this isn't everybody's thoughts by far....just mine. I know it's wrong, but they DO deserve it.
Out of all my family and friends, there is not one of them, with the exception of maybe my mom, that I care about enough to keep me from killing myself if I ever get over the line. Sometimes my thoughts are fueled by wanting to hurt them. I want them to feel the pain I feel. This has come from the many years of being ignored and not listened to when I cried out for help. It seems like the only way to make them understand how I feel. It excites me in a weird way to think about what they'd feel if I killed myself. The pain and hurt they'd feel, forever more. I think they deserve it because they have refused to help me. Like I said before, I know this isn't everybody's thoughts by far....just mine. I know it's wrong, but they DO deserve it.
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I don't think there's such thing as a good reason to kill youself but if it were just you, what is that bad about you that you should die?
I've looked at your profile and you are quite the dude!
Guitar? Mechanic?
Sounds like fun!
Give it till your 30 and see how you feel?
I'm here if you need to talk.
I feel that way all of the time - my parents are NOT there for me (maybe financially, but no emotional support) - they don't understand depression and I get picked on or yelled at more than supported. I have no friends.
I made it through the last ten years, so I think you can do the same.
I know you're angry, I feel resentful, too, but I read once that, "you should be a little kinder than necessary, because everyone is going through some kind of battle."
Everyday is hard for me, but I am still here.
I also would like to say that they are most certainly "ignorant" of my problems, they can't be. I've been saying for the last four years, to all of my family, and they just said "get over it" and moved on. They know, they just choose to not mess with the situation.
Mechanic and guitar are great, I like them but I never have a chance to do that. I'm always doing something or stuck in this hell hole apartment with people who sleep all the time. I really would like to get better at both, but neither are going to get me anywhere in life anyways, so why even bother with them? I'm not trying to be negative, that is just how I look at the situation.
That shit pisses me off.
People don't take things seriously until something bad happens and that is just how humans are.
What is it about human nature?