For about 6 months or so, I have been suffering from symptoms closely resembling PMDD. A couple days before my menstrual cycle, I become a completely different person and almost always, I think about suicide. Suicide isn’t a foreign thought to me, but the last 6 months it has become more real. I think I have always thought of suicide in a “what if I did this” way. How it would effect others, and the pain I would cause. But since showing signs of PMDD I have googled ways to actually kill myself and tried to think where in my house I could do it. Then, once the symptoms pass, I am completely fine. For a day I break down, I think these terrible thoughts, and feel completely alone. In the beginning I thought “well, it only happens once a month and then it’s over.” But it’s starting to get exhausting. Around the time it started, I also began to break out around my jaw line and cheeks. I have read this is due to a hormonal imbalance. I do plan on bringing this up to my doctor when I go for my annual next month but I would love to hear from others who experience this. I want to make it clear - I would NEVER take my own life. I’m just tired of feeling like I want to.
2 months down. 8 More To go! Question for the people that have been going through this for a lot longer then me. Do you count down the days, weeks, months? Dose it help or make it worse? I feel like the time is going by fast but at the same time, he's been gone 2 months & it feels like a lot longer! Another question. Dose anyone have special plans for that day you pick up your love? I look...
babe got sentenced today, hes been in for 2 years already. and he was sentenced to 6 and a half. honestly i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, 2024 he should be home we havent got the dates as of yet, but im still excited for a count down!!! and actually have a date to look forward too