For about 6 months or so, I have been suffering from symptoms closely resembling PMDD. A couple days before my menstrual cycle, I become a completely different person and almost always, I think about suicide. Suicide isn’t a foreign thought to me, but the last 6 months it has become more real. I think I have always thought of suicide in a “what if I did this” way. How it would effect others, and the pain I would cause. But since showing signs of PMDD I have googled ways to actually kill myself and tried to think where in my house I could do it. Then, once the symptoms pass, I am completely fine. For a day I break down, I think these terrible thoughts, and feel completely alone. In the beginning I thought “well, it only happens once a month and then it’s over.” But it’s starting to get exhausting. Around the time it started, I also began to break out around my jaw line and cheeks. I have read this is due to a hormonal imbalance. I do plan on bringing this up to my doctor when I go for my annual next month but I would love to hear from others who experience this. I want to make it clear - I would NEVER take my own life. I’m just tired of feeling like I want to.
I am a retired pschotherapst and a recovering PTSD surivor. As I experience the aging experience I am also experiencing PTSD issues. I believe the aging process triggers PTSD symptoms . Vulnerbility is the culpret. We are somewhat physically impaired and become more dependent on other to meet our challanges that come with the aging process.
I have been feeling overwhelmed at work lately. I thought I was making strides since the beginning of the school year. The school leader asked if I would help create the yearbook. I agreed not wanting to look like I didn't want to contribute to the overall being part of the staff etc. I struggled to figure out the software and being movitvated to make time to work on the project. I also...