
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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my depression is going downhill fast. i can't stop fantasizing about my death. i imagine myself laying in the kitchen floor in a pool of blood, and it won't go away. i am told i should tell my therapist about these thoughts, but the thing is....i have to decide whether or not i want to go or stay. do i want to live, or die? this is the decision i have to make. if i want to die, i can't tell my therapist because she would have me hospitalized.
my mind is so messed up right now. i don't knmow what i should do. please help.
my mind is so messed up right now. i don't knmow what i should do. please help.
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I agree talking with your therapist would help a great deal. I have talked with mine. She didn't hospitalize me. There is a chance, because you haven't attempted anything, these are thoughts and visions, she may not hospitalize you either. It is good to talk to get it out of your mind, especially to someone who is better equipped to handle this and get you through it, she may jusy surprise you.
the thing about the hospital is...IF she tells me she wants me in the hospital, i will honor her wishes. i've always been easy to work with in that way...i do whatever is asked of me. i've been in the hospital 7 times throughout my life, most of those being in the past couple of years. i hate going, but if asked to go, i will. maybe it's what i need...i don't know.
anyway, thanks again for all of the advive. i'm thankful for it.