I am so very thankful that they're are many, many young women who have sufferend not only rape, but other forms of sexual abuse over their young lives. And I pray for them; I spend hours talking with them about their experiences, I've been a sexual survivor's hot line volunteer, but I'm want to know how many other women come on these sites that where raped (either stranger or by a boyfriend/husband,etc) that suffered in silence. Those of us who were raped by family members who never had our days in court. Who when we finally got the courage to tell a counselor 20 or 30 years later we were told that maybe it's better to leave "sleeping dogs" lie. "lets just talk about your depression" We will never get our day in court. We will never be called heros, we well never be called victims and walk with out heads held high. We will continue to suffer in the dark, reliving the horrors that no onle wants to hear. The cops laugh, "well honey it's been 20 years, what do you want use to do'. We live with the belief that we did something. How many of us had back street abortions to rid ourselves of our fathers, grandfathers, brothers, couisins, baby growing in us and live with the guilt of killing our babies. My only child would be 37 years old now. A son. No man ever wanted to have a child with me after that. I still remember his birthday. It wasn't my fault, but the doctor wouldn't report the babies dady as my father....I'm so glad that we've taught the younger girls to stand up ..and that NO means NO...but what about the women in the shadows.....what do I till my son when I met him. I'm sorry. I love you. I wish I had died and not you. I am a hero too. I screamed no. But no one heard in the dark.
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