AS my friends here know I have been doing quite well. I have worked so hard to improve my depression. I saw my therapist Monday. When I first went in to see her I was feeling very good. Then the subject of a sister-in-law came up, since then I have been thinking about it almost non-stop. I can honestly say that I hate my sister-in-law. Now, before everyone starts......I know feeling this intense, raging, hate for this person isn't good for me and is giving her power over me. My question is I guess, has anyone else ever felt this way, and if so how did you get through it (if you have), and how long did it take you? I have felt hate before and in time I have been able to come to terms with it and release it. I've been able to find forgivness for the ex, it took close to four years, but I did it. My sister-in-law has hurt me not only with actions but with very harsh words toward me and my children. I guess I'm wondering even though I think I want to stop hating her maybe I'm just not ready. Something to explore. I will admitt it is very difficult for me to hear anything rationally where this horrible person is concerned. The story between us is a long one.
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