What a rough few days. I have had depression for a long time and it got really bad when my mother passed away in June 2007~~and just when I can finally stay awake for a full day~~~BAM here we go. On Thursday I got a phone call from my oldest son (he is 28) he was crying and I asked why and he said he wasn't sure. So I talked with him for some time and he calmed down and he told me that he was going to go and play with his 3 year old daughter. About 4 pm he calls me again and said that he needed me. I go to his house and he is curled up in a ball and crying. He said that he had called the hospital and they wanted him to go there. I asked him for what and he said because he had cut his arms and chest. (He was a cutter when he was younger). I call 911 and the ambulance comes and takes him to the hospital. Once there they find out that he sugar level is 712 and he tells them that he just wants to end everything! They did get his sugar levels down to 290 (as of yesterday) yet his wife told me last night that all his blood work came back and there are things to deal with. I asked her what and she said that she had waited to talk with his doctor but he never showed up. She told me the whole time she was there he was sleeping. Neither of us have heard from him today at all. And to top it all off......my husband tells me today that he is debating on leaving me. I was floored. He left for some time and when he came back I told him that we needed to talk because you can't just throw that at me and not let me know what is going on. He said that he loves me and can't picture his life without me but at this time he is miserable. I asked what I could do and he said nothing. He has to work it out. So what the ----- am I supposed to think. Then of course I go to the phone so I can call my mother and talk with her and then I remember she isn't on the earth anymore. As my youngest says alot..."This is a BAD BAD day"
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