I'm so frustrated right now that I'm fighting the urge to really put an end to this. I really want to go away for a couple days. Just get my head clear and give myself some time. I feel like my brain is in high gear and the rest of me isn't. Stuff keeps happening to me because of other people and I know I can't control the actions of others, but that doesn't keep them from f'ing with my life. What sucks the most is that these are people I should be able to rely on. I was really struggling before this drama hit and this has really sent me over the edge. I got some news that if I don't make changes in my health I could have some serious problems. It's hard to get motivated to excersise and eat right when I could care less if I live or not. What do I really have anyway? Everything I do can be done better by someone else. Thanks again for letting me vent everyone.
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