I'm in a loving relationship for the past year. Me and my boyfriend are expecting out first child at the end of the year. Lately I have been depressed. I'm not sure if it is my hormones or what. I feel like we aren't going to make it. I luv him so much. I constantly put ideas in my head that he is cheating on me. Like he is just with me because I'm pregnant. I cry all the time because I feel like my heart is breaking slowly from the thoughts that I put in my head. He tells me all of the time that he still loves me with all of his heart, and that I am his everything. I just don't feel like he does. I like staying at home. but if he goes to the store or the mall I feel like I gotta go. If I don't then he is going to find somebody else and leave me. I think I'm pushing him away with accusing him of cheating all of the time. I just don't think I could deal with it if we break up. I feel like it would be no point of living. I think he is the best one out there for me. I feel like I would just rather die then think about us breaking up or to deal with it.
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