Lately I've been having one of my strange "everything is basically okay but I just can't get into talking to people" episodes. I think it's over between me and my boyfriend....it was a long distance relationship, though that's not really the issue. The issue is the fact that he's a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic....I thought I could deal with that, but apparently I'm not up to it. I still love him...probably always will....but I think I'm not the right person for him. We basically screamed at each other over the phone a couple of weeks ago and I hung up on him, then called back and left a not so nice message on his voicemail. I called again a couple of days later and apologized and told him maybe he should try to find someone who understands more about what he goes through. The whole relationship is a bit complicated but that's where it's at. We've known each other for about 4 years....and while I've been trying to take this in stride and not let it bring me down, it's not been easy to do. I haven't heard from him since this happened, and now he's had his phone shut off from accepting incoming calls. I try not to take that personally he's done it before. I know this isn't a crisis, but it's been bothering me and I'd just like to see what others think.
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