So tonight I'm feeling that creeping up depression again. I feel like my boyfriend doesn't find be desirable anymore since I hit depression. I know I've gained weight, but I'm not greatly over weight. Of course he tells me I'm fine, yadda yadda.... but you know when you want to feel that way by someone taking action and that doesn't happen. The whole "Actions Speak Louder Than Words" thing comes in... yea. Don't get me wrong, he's a wonderful guy... but something has happened since I was diagnosed. I know he doesn't know how to handle me when I get emotional now... but I hate being left alone too. I've just been sitting here in the bedroom crying my eyes out asking myself why I'm even sitting here sometimes. I haven't slept well in three days and I know it's a part of the emotional stress. I'm just blue and feel unwanted right now. I'm dealing with alot of my family's problems right now and that's so ok with me.. but it's just adding on right now. I'm just hurting and just wanted somewhere to talk. Thank you for listening.
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