I feel completely jaded, cynical, and dead inside at the age of 23. I'm unemployed, having massive difficulties with personal relationships, and having real problems getting into law school (one of the few things keeping me going over the past couple years). Every day feels the same to me: just drifting, not feeling alive at all, taking no joy in my youth. I don't feel anything spiritual, or that my existence has any effect on anyone. I want, need change; need something to happen. But I can't find any motivation, no encouragement or reason to keep on going. It's not that I'm suicidal now, but if I can't change soon, it's starting to look like my only real option. Why is this the life I was doomed to live?
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