I have one BIG thing i need to change in my life befor i can be happy at all. And i am going to put somehing on hear that i would not realy be ok with telling people I AM A 335 lib 26 year old. And my size effects every single part of my life. I cant ride a bike, i cant go swiming, i can walk my dogs, cant wear a dress or any nice close i have to get all my close online. cant....cant....cant i cant do anything in my life. Just taking a bath, getting dressed cleaning my house things you do everyday is so hard for me to do. When i walk pas a mirror it upsets me so much to know i have let myself get to this point. i am so tyerd of people looking at me like im shit and thinking that i just sit and eat all day long and dont move. and thats not me, i used to be in b-bay, v-ball and karate. but when i was 17 i had my lil girl, i had alot of probblems with her and almost lost her. I started my pregnance at 214libs and ended at 287. then got pregnant again and ended up at 308. then i fell down a flight of steps and hurt my back and could not get better thats when the doc found out i had degenrative disc des. in my spine.( spelled the best i could) then we found out i have a thyroid probblem also. So do to the back 3 doctors have told me not to try to work out and not to walk cause it makes my legs and feet swell bad. and i dont have the best of income to eat right. so im stuck. pluse i am in constant pain do to my back. also i do hair for aliving so all that standing dose not help. I feel that if i wasent so fat i would be able to handle life much better. and i would never set down or sleep i would be out doing everything i cant do now. i just want to live my life!!!!! and be happy!!!!
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