When I say "just depressed" I don't really mean that. I mean majorly depressed. I feel so stupid about all of it. I feel like it's stupid that I'm feeling like this. I just don't feel it's worth it anymore. All the acting has just gotten old. Its very difficult for me to seek anyones help. I know that I probably should......I don't know. I've tried today to get myself energized to go do something, I've been in this apartment the past 4 days or so just laying here; I just can't do it. I don't even really know why I'm posting this. Life has just turned to confusing for me. Lately I've been thinking about the bottels of meds in my bathroom or the blade I have hidden in the cupbored. I don't know, I wonder if I should just give up.
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