I am one of 6 children (#5 in line). I do no speak to the 2 oldest (boys) or the oldest sister. I only speak with the sister just older than me and my little sister. Well, that is until Thursday night. This seems like the night from H@ll for me. My DD woke up sick in the middle of the night, but before that my older sister stopped talking to me. She actually hung up the phone before I could say anything to her, then she wouldn't talk to me at all and took her phone off the hook. Now, I am so angry that I don't want anymore contact with her. My family is seriously screwed up and I am working on fixing my problems, but she just threw a bunch of stuff at me (basically she doesn't like the way I'm raising my daughter) and I don't know how to feel. I already feel like a bad mother and inadequate at taking care of her, this makes me just want to leave and get out before I ruin her life. I also no longer want to speak with my little sister because she and my older sister are really close and I know that she knows the other side, but not mine and I am not willing to drag another person into this. But, I don't want anyone else to just "kick" me down again. What do I do? Do I leave and let my DH take care of my DD? Why is all this bothering me so much? Am I really a bad mother? I know that I make mistakes, but I would NEVER hurt my baby.
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